Thursday, November 06, 2008

Buddy list/buddy lust.

Out of nowhere, her name popped up on my AIM buddy list. I hadn’t seen her online for years. I hadn’t seen her in person for even longer.

I met her in college and had a crush on her instantly. A month or so later, I found out she had a crush on me back. We had a few dates, but it ended up going nowhere because I still wasn’t over a girl who had messed me up the year before. Eventually, we started talking less and less, and at the end of the semester, she transferred to another university.

Sometimes I wonder if only I had met her a year earlier, or a year later. I’m sure things would have worked out a lot better. Timing has never been my forte.

I sat there in front of my computer wondering if I should try to chat with her. We hadn’t left on the best of terms, but that was years ago. And she was sweet and fun and oh so very good-looking. I pictured her adorable smile and her glasses framing her delicate brown eyes and thought to myself, “What the hell. I’ll give it a shot.”

I scrolled over to my buddy list and placed my cursor over her name, ready to double-click for a conversation when her status automatically popped up in a hover box. It simply read, “We’re engaged!!!”

Apparently, my timing hasn’t improved.